Tuesday, February 14, 2017

That Which Lies Inside

There are seasons inside us
Whole continents, deep seas
Sun soaked stone, damp undergrowth
Vast stretches of undiscovered rainforest
There is a Himalayan mountain range
inside you, an unconquered Everest
There are five oceans inside me
Yet I am bound to the mouth of one stream
There are two poles at the center of my heart
There are places within me perpetually frozen
Where winter waits most of the year
before releasing Persephone
There is a Sun in the nucleus of your heart
Between its beats, there are days and nights
There are seas, valleys and lakes in your eyes
There are forests in your interiors blanketed by moonlight
Beneath the sea level of the surface of your gaze
There are worlds deep within us
unfamiliar with the stars
And strangers to the dawn though we may be
We have not forgotten the language of light
For within the perpetual darkness of the deep sea
It is in bioluminescence that we speak

untitled p III

Time is not always linear
It is still 1984
The great war is ongoing
My parents have yet to fall in love
I still believe the world is flat
and the sun and stars revolve around earth
I am still a pagan
The last ice age has not yet ended
I am still an ape
I am that ape waiting for the evolutionary leap
that caught some of my predecessors but somehow missed me
I am a pagan ape
still waiting to evolve
still waiting to exist

Confessions - freewrites p II

Can a thought be unwinded, or unthought?
Does matter return to thought at some point?
A thought, a dream, perhaps the entire universe
is a conception of the sleeping God's mind
Maybe God, wanting to be known
dreamed all of this into being
and we are all figments and silken filaments
of the Divine's imagination
which is more Real than our waking realities
Perhaps God sleeps an eternity as we do an evening
and when God wakes from that life-giving slumber
It knows itself that much more through Its creations
the gateway to life and existence as we know it
the dreamscape that we call the Universe
Eternity is one evening
The Universe--God's dreaming
Beauty is apparent everywhere
but perpetually submerged in shadows
maybe that's why our world can appear so dark
and why we can't draw perfect circles
and why we are so forgetful
and why we need to be reminded of the light
because we exist on the dark side of God's imagination
we are in Plato's cave, enthralled by the shadows
of Beauty and Truth, but having never known them
in the full light of day, and maybe death is only that
a stepping out into color from a cave of shadows
maybe death is simply a dream-riddled night
turning into a full day, maybe death is an instrument
of Divine alchemy, as the figments of Divine imagination
metamorphose into reality, because it is the gateway
through which we pass from night to day
imagination to realization, slumber to wakefulness
Death is simply the end of a dream
but nothing in a dream really dies
it is the shadow of life that imagines and fears death
it is the shadow of life that imagines and fears
the end of the dreaming, for in the wake of death
dream filaments and sleeping potential
turn into the realization of existence

confessions - regression

And where was Awe?
There was only I
So much of it there was no room for anything else
let alone Awe, which requires high ceilings
or no ceilings at all, and where was I?
The truth is I don't know
I would like to say on the cusp of something
or the verge or threshold
but there is nothing, I slept through my dreams
and they really became dreams; forgotten.
I was in myself, on my self
there was no room for anything else
when you become so consumed
in something so small as oneself.
Where was I going? Where am I going?
with this body, worse for wear with each year
Where am I going?!
Bewildering to realize that is the question
you ask yourself
Not where Awe is, that is established.